I have lost 11 pounds now!!! Also dropped two sizes!

I am so happy! Today I had two different doctor appointments and both of them noticed my weight loss and also some of the secretary's! I was told by one of my friends there today that I am her inspiration! It has been a long journey and I still need to lose 30 more pounds to get to my goal of where I was back when Kerry first became disabled but I am motivated to keep going! I tried on jeans this week that I have not been able to wear in years! I have been trying to walk twice a day now and it sure has been helping...hugs, cheryl

P.S. Where has this summer gone? The kids are starting school this week and it just seems like they just got out!

Life and more doctors...

Today I had another appointment with the Movement Disorder Clinic...didn't even know this part of life exited...my tremors are worse and no one can tell me why? They want me to do a study for three months and I have been thinking about it since I came home..it is going to downtown Chicago once a week so it is a commitment...it is all paid for but the traveling will take a toll on me...I have to deal with all that has happened to me in the last 10 years of my life..I have to face all the things in my life that I have had to give up, my family that does not talk to me because of what my parents have done for my family to keep us in our home or have done to keep my girls going or Kerry, the husband that I do not have that use to do so much for me, my business that I gave up to take care of Kerry, the trial that we lost that all I can do is pray for the nurses and doctors that they have to live with what they said in the trial, as we have to live with what happened to Kerry and the toll it has taken on my entire life and family, our financial and medical problems that just seem to never end, all the doctors, my girls and trying to raise them the best I can, trying to keep Kerry being positive when he just wants to quit, my parents as they age, and the toll all of this has now taken on my health has hit my body so bad that they feel the tremors are from all these years of stress and more stress....then tonight when I was just laying here thinking about these years my mom emailed me this post I just put on...I haven't called my parents as they just keep telling me over and over they do not know how much longer they can keep us in our home...it has been a lot this year for me to deal with and I think I am handling it but I guess I just keep it all inside which is not good...pray I make the right choices here! I know God is in control and he has taken care of us for 10 years...we have never gone hungry and he has provided a roof over our head for all these years so I need to just put it in his hands and leave it there...hugs and prayers, cheryl

Life...!

I have really been hit over and over but today was not what I ever thought would be happening to me as they have done MRI's and CT scans and they cannot figure out what is happening to my body..then today after being at so many specialist he sat and sat...then I got really nervous and I don't usually feel this way but I could tell something was not going right...he then ordered one more MRI and then wants a workup with a Neurologist...for MS? My heart just sank and I kept it together until I got to the parking lot...then the tears came...it has been a tough 10 years and now after all the fighting to hang on I get told this today..just trying to face more tests and doctors...so tired of it all...Please keep me in your prayers...hugs, cheryl

Listening to the nudge of God!

I just woke up and talking in my sleep and I decided to call and check on my dad...the nurse told me he was in pain and wanted pain meds so he was calling the doctor and he has been bleeding red blood for a day now..they think he might be bleeding internally now..please pray so hard to go through and watch and how awesome though that God gives me these nudges constantly and I listen like tonight at 3 am to call and the nurse gave me the phone and I was able to talk to my dad for 15 min. He told me I always know when something is wrong and it really is true for 10 years I have always called doctors and they have listened and tonight to think I called and my dad needed someone to talk to is just like our heavenly father always there to listen..he is showing me that he will be there for me day or night and I will make it and when my dad will be in heaven it will be such a better place..hugs, cheryl ...xoxoxoxo for the storms of life....I am glad I have all of you to lift me up!

Living Wills...make sure you have yours..

My mom thought she had a living will at the hospital and she didn't have it at home either it was at the attorney's office and they were closed over the weekend...I called at 6:45 before the nurse left from the night shift and got news that they had to call a code on my dad as his heart rate was over 160 and climbing and couldn't get it down so they had to zap him with the machine..and give him IV meds to get his heart rate to go back to normal..then his urine is all blood and not sure but the nurse is concerned with his stomach distending...so please pray...and just a word of advice to make sure if you have a living will you have a copy at home and the hospital that you go to..they only had my mom's on file and not my dad's..here my parents thought they had both of theirs...I learned this with Kerry also and this makes me know I need to check the hospitals again to make sure it has the copies on file...going up as more specialists are being called in this am...hugs, cheryl

PS My dad told me today I have no idea how Kerry goes through each day of suffering..I have only had a few days in my life and he has had 10 years...we both started to cry..I told him I am praying that God will take his pain away...and that is why Kerry always wants to sleep because then he doesn't remember so much suffering and my dad told me I know now...